it the time.

when i was thinking about the future.. i think about WHERE IS THE WORLD I'LL BE PLACED.. it in my hand. yes.. i was just awake from my long nightmare. it not like the others nightmare.. it was happen when i open my eyes..the nightmare made by my own hand and my mind.!  i realize it but i don't know where should i go? what should i do.? regret of it..? it too late..! but people always said.." it not too late for you to apologize.." yes and i think so but where should i start first..? it make me feel lose with no direction even there's too many way to choose. am i right.?  like the William Shakespeare said.. "in our life.. we are the actors and the world is the stages.. " who is the stronger,smarter,brilliant,rich always be on the top..! and the slower,weaker,stupid,poor ALWAYS BECOME THE SLAVE. GOSHH..! it that fair for them..???? maybe for us it fair because we didn't felt the way they feel. imagine.. if someday our opportunity is taken back by the God . can you. imagine that,, ? nowadays people always talk about the MONEY, BEAUTY, WEALTHY, POWER. so sad to say it because we are the one of it. it makes me feel sad because i'm wasting my time since i had the chance but i didn't use it well. why..? because i was blind in that time. i made it to myself. i'm not look beyond the future. it not my main point actually. the truth is i want to apologize with the people i ever hurt their feelings. i do a lot of sins. too many. uncountable. make them angry of me,make them cry because of me,make them feel lose because of me, make them feel dissapointed because of me. i'm really sorry for that. i know it not enough to cover back what ive done to you. i honestly i need your guide. huh.. cry is not the solution right. i'll do my best to cover it back with give you the flying colours result that show me obey your advice. can you believe me this time.? i hope so. and love.. i'll throw it away because it not suitable time to fall in love besides i know i'm the one who is love holic. so,for focus in my study it the best way right. :) that is your advice to me. i still remember it and this time i'll prove it even i know it late. since the sun still arise, i know there's a chance for me. thank you to make me open my closed eye.